Ya know, when you're in the habit of doing things just cause you want to and not caring about the outcome or consequences, life is pretty easy. But once you start to actually make good decisions and caring about the example you're setting, life gets much more complicated.

Now that I'm starting to get some things right again, a new fear has risen up in me. I'm terrified to screw up like I have before. I'm scared that I'll ruin one of the best things I have right now over a stupid choice down the line. Honestly, if that happens, I don't think I could handle it. But most of all, I have a fear of letting down all the people that expect things from and even look up to me.