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I miss you so much. Why can't it be as simple as let's just hang out tonight?

Which path in which direction with which reflection?

I don't even know anymore. Who I am. Where I'm going. It all seems so foreign to me. Why can't I just show my emotions anymore? Show my boyfriend the strong feelings of what could be love for him. Go off on someone who makes me mad. Give the biggest smile ever to those who make me happy. Hug the ones I miss. Cry over events that sadden me. All this used to be me. I even used to have everything figured out and just waiting on me to get to it. Is this same girl still inside somewhere? Is she hidden by a mirage? Or have I become something different? When will I figure this out? When will I quit drastically changing on the inside? When will I finally know who I am. And more importantly: how can I get to where the real me is?