Not sure what to call this, so I'm going with this. :)

As of Friday, I am now officially 15 years of age. I am hoping that this new chapter in this incomplete book of my life will be a little bit better than the last. Keeping with the metaphor, Chapter 14 was rather crazy for me. I mean this point a year ago, I knew I was becoming more rebellious and all but i didn't know I was just a week or two away from making the biggest mistake of my life so far. I changed so much during this time. I painted my room, pierced my ears for the first time, started straightening my hair, viewpoints changed, my inner person changed. I started getting closer to my best friend at the time, Jasmine, before I had to deal with her moving across the country. All of this and more has made me into the person I am today and I am aware of this even though I'm not proud how it all came about. The closer to the 1 year mark the more I am reminded. Most people don't even know how I wild my spirit truly was at that time. And then around sometime in June I went to a camp with my youth group and it made me really think about all the crap I had done/was doing and how most of it wasn't right. I started fixing things and it was working for the most part until school started back when i entered this whole new world called high school. Ever since just August, I have changed again too and still am. I'm finding myself facing some of the same challenges as i did this time a year ago. it helps that now I'm closer to my friends and even my family and I also have a great boyfriend there for me no matter what. But I'm also worried that I'm going to fall into some of the same stuff again and i really don't want to. The news I just received yesterday of my youth leader and his wife leaving doesn't really help either. i know we can still talk and go to them for anything but they are the first adults to ever know that much about me. So its hard to deal with that since I feel we all have a special connection with them in just the short time they've known us all. I guess all that was just to say that this next part of my life is most likely going to be a roller coaster of events again. Hopefully it'll be better than last year and that i won't have to go through some of the same stuff as I did last year. Here's to a better year. ♥